Sigh...
In the midst of my friends being engaged and some has got married, I find myself asking, is it really for me? When will I get "and they lived happily ever after" statement?
For all that I have been, sometimes, I want to stop my heart loving people so that it won't get hurt anymore. Anyway, the love and company that my family and friends provide, were actually enough for me to live. But then.. I am not that type of person. My motto: Love as long as you can. Love like you have not been hurt before.
In between spaces of writing this, I can justify to myself why I actually have not settle down yet. I am special to God and I know that He wants the best for me. He wants me to settle with someone who is perfectly right for me. He may not be the perfect person that others can see but he is molded by God to be perfect for me. God will not allow that I will have a broken family in the future. That is why settling down with someone happens in God's time.
I am not in a entertainment/showbiz industry, and as much as I pray, that I will only marry once (except for the 25th year, etc) to a that one person that I wanted to look at, smile and make every morning right every time I wake up. Someone that I will grow old with regardless if our kids has left us. Someone that you will give all whole heartedly.
Having said this, I know someday my time will come. For now, i leave this music/video to go with my "emo" times.
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